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Serene is beginning to hate 2009

2009-03-11T20:19:00.001+08:00

I thought i read somewhere that 2009 would be a better year. It does not seems that way. ): Im beginning to hate school, hate work, i hate my life. )):

Grateful serene.

2009-03-02T00:53:00.003+08:00

Yiqiqi's bf helped to do the above pictures. Thanks XDD (thou i dont know what that meant)

Im so sleepy, im going to bed in 5 secs. Bye.

IT noob

2009-02-25T23:19:00.003+08:00

I am a noob cause i cant do a proper blogskin. ):

Please bear with this for the moment. Will figure this out in a few days. I hate ITs. :

Serene needs to save more money

2009-02-24T23:48:00.004+08:00

I booked my BTT last friday and am on my way to getting my driving license but i find myself surfing topshop website more frequently then ever. Die lah, not to mention my one whole fucking big bag of reservations not bought yet. How to pay for my driving lessons leh. ):

If i had a wishlist, i think it would take me (qi qi si shi jiu tian) to finish noting it down. The more i work, the more i am in debt. Damn, why is this happening! I think i need to start saving more money.

I think i am so enlightened. I shall throw away 1 reservation. (:

2009-02-24T23:04:00.003+08:00

ive yet to enjoy my holidays and im getting my ass back to hpb tomorrow morning. Damnit, barney had to haunt us with her infamous briefing.

The past two days had been fully utilized. i did everything i had planned, but ive yet to suntan! I need to get more tan for the look-skinnier effect. Haha. Man saw me today and commented that i grew skinnier. Oh thanks, pi said i was on cloud nine. (: I head over to ikea and stood on the goddamn 5.30$ weighing machine and it turned a few rounds before hitting 5xkg. I almost died. I came down, step up again and died. 5xkg that is. ):

Ikea's such a money-sucker cause i spent a bomb on storage boxes before heading over 30minutes later (with dad&mom this time) to get more barangs. Dad got me a star lamp cause he sort of knew i would be afraid to sleep alone, thats when my sis is off to hostel. ): So ive got a few nice storage boxes, a star lamp and 1 cute little weisheng. Thats a little elephant name after ppk's ex. Sorry i stole his name. Haha.

The past two days had been meeting old friend/teachers day. I met denise, tunyi, big bird (sorry i forgot his name), Mr Ng and Mdm Tan. Its been awhile i met these people. Mr Ng and Mdm Tan still together (after so long), denise still look as cute, big bird still look the same, tunyi still as big size lor.

Pi asked me if we would still sit together with tunyi if M was around. I dont think so. Its not that im still angry, but more of the embarrassment i guess. Sorry to all my friends we helped me hated her, but i guess i dont hate her that much now. To think about it, theres nothing much to hate actually. Haaa. It feels quite good when i pass him the discount voucher actually. Im not that petty afterall! (:

But with all the good deed (i saved a forest fire too!), i dont feel any better. I still get lots of crazy ants infesting my poor house. Ants are part of my family now, they are my little sisters/brothers. They are a bunch of cool ants which crawl at a speed of 110km/min.

On top of that, I had to catch my sister stealing my clothes. Clothes that were F**king new and worn only once. Fuck it. Im not being selfish here, but you should see how she treats me. I need to get a lockable wardrobe asap. Yea, that should do..

Serene just cant study.

2009-02-17T15:53:00.003+08:00

I dont know how did i end up online. I wanted to look for past year questions intially. The stupid link just wont work, end up blog hopping instead. Damn. Im such a silly ass.

My left ear is fucking swollen and in pain. Might be the overeating of chocolates. Thank you to yiqiqi and pi who gave me lovely chocolates. (To those who are concern about me, thank u, both pi and i are fine now.)

I am super sian and no motivations to study at all. How leh. Die lor. ):

2009-02-13T14:01:00.003+08:00

Things got a lil better today. Got hooked on to pet's society. Damn. Exams is just around the corner, i know i know.

Called the shop early in the morning to check my schedule. My shift sucks. K asked me to come earlier since im not schooling. He wants me to suffer even more can. ):

I think im getting lazy. I kind of dread going to work. Die lah! ):

My life is worst then ever.

2009-02-12T22:51:00.003+08:00

i went out today, thinking that i'll feel better. No way, i felt even worst then before. ):

Saw how everybody bought balloons, chocolates and gifts for their loved ones. How they held hands and hug before me. I felt so sorry for myself. S said i was being zhi4 tao2 ku3 chi1. Yeah, i think i agree.

Feeling so sorry for myself, i bought 2 balloons and 15 dollar worth of clips. I didnt feel any better la. Still as sad lor. ):

I never thought i'll live through this, but i guess i just did. My tomorrow can never get any better. Sigh, i hate saturday. I wish the day would never come.

)':

Stupid me.

2009-02-11T15:02:00.003+08:00

He started a conversation on msn not long ago. To think some part of me still hope he would at least apologize and ask for patch.

No way, he started all the blaming. It feels like he stabbed me a million times. ): It hurt so fucking badly, i wished i could die. I hate this, why should i deserve this! )':

I still wish for the best. really..

):

2009-02-11T12:39:00.002+08:00

Can somebody tell me what is freedom?

I remembered i once hated mama cause she fucking took away my freedom. She restricted me to go out with my friends, forbid me from wearing skirts, restricted me from going over to arcade, never allowed me to stay over from chalets. I fucking hated her.

Under her harsh supervision, i still got the chance to wear skirts, hoping over to arcade secretly with friends. And recently, she just allowed me to stay over with classmates. With all these, i was thankful to her. She allowed me to stay a good girl, at least smoke/alcoholic free. So what if i were to be labelled as uncool, so be it. At least i knew i did not let her down.

But why was he not appreciative of all that ive done. He had to hurt me by saying i control too much. What did i do wrong to deserve all these. I want to die. ):

2009-02-11T10:30:00.003+08:00

I fell asleep around 8pm yesterday, was too tired from everything. Received a sms from him around 9pm asking if i was willing to forgive him. Then came another sms an hour later stating everything was decided. We should be seperated..

Does it mean if i was awake, i could have done something to save our relationship. Or at least he could have been given a chance to explain, or beg to stay? Stupid serene, what was i thinking. This will NEVER happen.

Right from the day i received the news, there were NO apology. There were no proper explainations. There were only denial and blame. He was a total changed man. Oh no, he merely changed back to what he was. I should have believed that leopard will never change its spots. (No matter how hard you scrub)

I'll be waiting for the day, you'll do something nice to get me back. I've learnt shou3 zhu1 dai4 tu4 is not good, but it feels better if i lived on dreams. I'll be waiting..

p/s: on a lighter note, my sister passed her TP. Im so glad for her cause she's been a grundo all her life. She finally lived past it. (: But i hate it cause my mum's been asking about his TP. Everytime she mention his name, i want to die. I hate this. Argh. ):

I will not cry.

2009-02-10T16:44:00.005+08:00

Just like a long drama serial, everything ended abruptly after 42 months. There were no happily ever after, instead everything went out of hand.

All the efforts i put into the relationship, the tears, nagging, sweat, all the huge ass planning i made were all flushed down the drain. It was literally destroyed.. I wouldnt say i wasnt at fault, cause i partly initiated the seperation. I just couldnt forget how he lied to me. I tried to forget (i swear i did), but still the flashbacks of how he break the news of lying, like it meant nothing keeps coming back to me each time. That was how bad it hurt me.

I was almost bribed by the melody pen intially. But i knew i shouldnt forgive you. We shouldnt build our relationship just based on materials and presents. Thank you for all the surprises over the years. It didnt helped much. You were a bad boy to start with.

Each time i rant about our problems, you refuse to acknowledge. You hated how i pushed all the blame to you. You said i did not trust you. I will still say the same. I dont. Not at all. You abused the little trust i had in you, even thou it was a mere 0.000001%. You made use of your mother sending you home ( i remembered), u deliberately hid the truth from me. So what if you were with the guys. I wasnt there to witness.

You say i was such a control freak. Thanks, ive heard it a million times. If i had controlled you, you'll never get to stay over in ben's house. Or even get near a pub. Not to mention, given the chance to participate in city alive. Why did u have to betray my love and care for you, over your brotherhood. Does it meant that they bring you more happiness then i do.

Does it mean nothing when you see the things i made for you, or the toys we played before. Do you feel nothing when i cry in the front of you, telling you how hurt i was. Why do you have to choose them over me. Why? Why when i did so much for you.

I insisted on staying last night cause i knew it was going to our first and last time staying overnight together. Thank you for opting to sleep on the same bed. (we did nothing). I felt happy and safe. Just like the chinese saying; nevermind if we couldnt last forever, at least we were once together.

Just like a little girl, i wanted this strawberry ice cream so badly. When i got it, i held it so tightly it crushed and melted. You were the same, you slip through my fingers just like that. Thank you for the memories. I'll never forget you, i'll keep rat aside. ):

Stronger.

2009-02-08T22:43:00.002+08:00

I never thought that he would lie to me, but he did. Nevermind the fact that he didnt bothered to apologized, he claimed that i didnt asked, so he kept quiet about it. Thankfully best friend found out, im super glad.

I really wonder if i should bang my head against the wall, or bang his head against the floor. Or maybe i should let him suck my used pad. Damn.

Ive had enough of these nonsense. Its time i pamper myself.

I hate fats.

2009-01-21T19:48:00.003+08:00

After much suffering, i finally managed to shake off limited amount of damn fats. Im weighing much lighter now! (: Happiest x10.

Sun tanned with pi the other day. Super last minute decision, but got myself more chao ta then ever. I love it. Hmm. Sun burn on my nose (highest area on my flat face) ): and my chest! Hurting and itchy damn bad!! Agony xmillion!

Stress out!

2009-01-14T20:05:00.000+08:00

Im am exhausted. I really am.. ):

Happy New Year! (:

2009-01-01T15:08:00.003+08:00

Byebye 2008, Hello 2009!

Its gonna be a better year for me! (hopefully)

New year resolutions? No more foul language, serene! &work harder to earn more money! (F those ppl who hates me, damn) &stop missing swimming lessons. Damn, i need to swim better!

Yay, enjoy your day! =D

p/s: i want to own a pink camera soon! All my pics are (F) outdated can! Wristlet too, when im feeeling a lil richer. Geeee..

Woohoo!

2008-12-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

pi's coming back tomorrow. & i cant wait for my presents!

No longer a caged bird!

2008-12-16T00:23:00.003+08:00

I went msia today with dearest serene. Thank god i still have great friends around me. I guess i can survive without him too. (:

Still trying hard to adapt things here. Ive been crying nightly, just got to let it out. I'll be alright soon, i guess! Work (without her) makes me happy. More money, and away from problems. I love work. (:

I need more $$

2008-12-14T23:32:00.003+08:00

Pi went off to bangkok today, not very happy. Its alright, i'll get over it soon. ):

I really like work, i just cant stand certain people. I think they hate me too, ah whatever. Just got to earn more $$ for christmas! (:

Jia you serene!!

I want it all.

2008-12-14T23:25:00.002+08:00

Christmas present for myself. Should i?

2008-12-08T12:31:00.001+08:00

Yay its monday & a holiday.

But to be spent at home, doing projects all day long. ):

I hate holidays.

One angry day.

2008-12-02T20:58:00.002+08:00

1. I really dont understand how people can be so insensitive towards other's feelings. One group member commented that i never do ANY project work today.

WTF?

She said i didnt had any contributions, when in fact i did my work and edited other people's work. Is that called not doing any work. I hate such stupid comments. People should just think before they speak. Damn it.

Im getting so angry over such trivial things. I am petty serene. ):

2. Im joining dance classes with 5 other classmates. Its something i really wish to try since young. Im so excited. Hope it'll be a nice experience. (:

Embarrassed.

2008-12-02T20:08:00.001+08:00

Clothes spoilt, mum went to shop to apologized.

WTF?

I am utterly embarrassed. ):

I hate stains.

2008-11-30T22:49:00.001+08:00

Stained new wallet with marker ink from self-made water bottle. Sad xmillion.

I so hate myself. ):

Shagged.

2008-11-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

I was the COD-cum-SRA today. Almost died. ):

Class ended at 6pm. Rushed over to topshop for good deals before flying home for pi's driving lesson.

Shagged can.

19.

2008-11-17T22:58:00.002+08:00

Omg, im 19. Thank you all for the presents. Im touched. (:

Classmates are the best i guess. I received 6 from them. 1 from best friends. Thanks. (: (im not implying anything)

Big thank you to dear pi. I love my patent marc by marc jacobs wallet. (: Lovelove!

Life goes on! =DDD

Serene hates projects.

2008-11-10T09:45:00.003+08:00

More projects on the way. I hate the groupings, i hate the work load. Argh. I cant wait for next year. Driving lessons soon, i guess. (:

(Birthday in 5 more days. Yay!!)

Fucked up class.

2008-11-04T12:56:00.001+08:00

Surrounded by nerds. Chee-bye~

Random.

2008-10-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

Came online the finish up project slides, ended up blogging instead.

Serene's been healthy and tanned these days. Ive become a tan bear once again, thanks to once-a-week swimming session. Yayness. (:

Trimmed my eyebrows for the very first time at browhaus. Super professional x10, ive got nice eyebrows now. =D Say bye to caterpillars. Heeee.

Sorry, still no pictures yet cause im one BIG lazy bear. Most of the days are spent in HPB, theres no time for photo-taking session. The next session would most probably be on my birthday.

Its 16 more days to SERENE'S birthday. (No, im not hinting) Best friends, alert. I'll be having a meet-up session with you girls/guys. No huge fancy birthday party this year. Im super busy.. ): Just a normal birthday celebration!

Yay, happy advance birthday to me. =DDD

Bad day.

2008-10-22T20:34:00.002+08:00

Some thing happened at work today &serene is upset. Dont want to talk about it further. My mood's certainly getting worst. ):

Yet another slack day tomorrow cause im patient-less in the morning. Happiest x10. I havent had any cons cases so far, i've been praying damn hard. Need to start revising!!!

Jia you serene.

p/s: Didnt snack during lunch today. Im making improvement. (:

Sickly Serene.

2008-10-20T22:31:00.001+08:00

Just recovered from terrible stomach flu. ):

Hao Ren.

2008-10-16T21:47:00.004+08:00

Somebody found my student id card and passed it to the juniors, and juniors passed it to Dr Hema and Dr Hema brought it to Health promotion board for me.

I cant believe i can get so lucky.

I didnt even knew i lost it until mdm soh messaged me. I am one lucky kid. (:

Motivated x10.

2008-10-11T16:42:00.002+08:00

The past 2 weeks had been spent mostly on work, trying to squeeze some time out for family, pi, friends. Ive been missing out alot on friends, im so so sorry ive been super busy. Im really exhausted.

I gave weili's birthday party a missed yesterday cause i wasnt feeling well. My eyeballs feels like they're ready to pop out and my head on the verge of bursting. I know its me, my fault for chionging work. Im starting to think im really stupid.

But work made me matured a little, it allowed me to meet all sorts of people. The happy, emo, lazy, rich, blah..blah.. Im glad im in TS cause people there really treats me well. (:

I got sick after all the chionging (i am a weakling) and i stayed at home the WHOLE (damn) DAY today. I msn-ed with customer-cum-friend and realised i need to grow up fast. I am nineteen this year and im still playing with soft toys(?!) I am embarrassed, indeed. ):

Im so motivated, im going to work towards my dream (not gonna mention it here, pi you should know) No, im not going to give up my fried chicken wings, they're too tasty. I'll just exercise more la! =D For everyone's information, i can swim now. Both freestyle and breaststroke (though not that good) but im no longer a loser. I dont suck at swimming anymore. (: Happiest.

Hols coming to an end, say hi to school once again. I hate school (oh mannnn) and attachment. Sighh.. Im seperated from pi in special needs module. Damn it. I guess i'll be staying over in reg's hostel whenever i need to. Hate this arrangement. Argghhh.

Good luck to serene. No more falling sick.

Serene is sick.

2008-10-11T10:27:00.000+08:00

Serene is currently down with flu, cough and fever. ): I am a sick bear.

Off to polyclinic. Sigh.. ):

Jurong swimming complex.

2008-10-09T00:29:00.005+08:00

yay, swimming tomorrow. Im loving it.

Finally its off day, im damnnnnnnn happy.

Theres so many things to do, so little time.

1. Go jurong with pi.
2. Meet up with bestie serene.
3. Trim my eyebrows.
4. Chiong sales!

I need more time.

p/s: i think the breakfast meeting that wingtai's holding is cool. Im pretty upset i cant attend. I hate the fact im a mini part-timer. ): I'll love to be in punk/country/pop band trend thou. =D

Shiiiiattt.

2008-10-06T22:27:00.001+08:00

Full shift tomorrow. I cant believe this.

Hello thursday, i'll be awaiting you. Im happier today, im glad.

Stay happy always, serene. (:

I cant sleep.

2008-10-05T23:17:00.002+08:00

My mood sucks after starting work, i dont know if im going crazy over the packed schedule. Ive been mind-fucking (me, myself) real hard, it doesnt seem to help. But at least i made some friends from customers &im really glad.

I made a friend yesterday &everyone's against it. Why? Why? W-H-Y!? We should be open-minded. It feels quite nice to have a 'friend' afterall cause ive been missing everyone for a long time. Its always a "hey lets meet up sometime", but nobody does. ):

Im so stress it makes me want to smoke (no kidding). I dont look forward to school at all, i hate school. No more attachment, &thats it.

& i wish.. ):

contradiction (x99999999999999999);
I hate work, but i love going to work. (:
I hate school, but i cant wait to start working alone ><
I hate menses, but im glad it came (&past)
I hate my thoughts, but i loveeeeeeeee myself.

I cant stop thinking. I need helppppppppppppppppppppp. ))))))))))))))))))':

At last.

2008-10-05T21:14:00.002+08:00

Oh finally some time for me to blog. Ive been missing plenty of sleep, i can turn into sleeping beauty sometime soon.

Ive been feeling damn lousy due to menses. Argh, totally hate the feeling. I need my long-lost swimming session tomorrow! =D

I really hate working thou im such a workaholic.

Schedule

2008-09-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

Snail is as busy as ever! My schedule is so packed i can hardly breathe!

I have no time for sms, no time for phone calls, no time for meetups! Im a life-less snail. ):

Snail's been neglecting pi, im sorry dear snail i'll squeeze more time out for swimming session together! =D

Lovelove!

Isetan sales rocks.

2008-09-25T16:25:00.003+08:00

Chiong-ed isetan sales early morning today, i bought yet another tote bag. DKNY, i love. (:

I'll be working 6days a week during the 2weeks break. Oh my god, i need kit-kat. ):

More money please.

Fingernails &hair.

2008-09-24T12:09:00.003+08:00

2 things about my fingernails.

1. My fingernails are fucking short (cause i bite them) and i still kena fungal infection. What bad luck. I cut the infection part and i left it looking like UGLY (betty). Now fingernail 1 is ugly.

2. Other fingernails started growing (cause i stopped biting them) and they grow up looking pretty, but i had to bite them off. I couldnt resist. What a loser. & now they all look equally ugly.

2 things about my hair.

1. Stop telling me i have super long hair. On a saturday afternoon while walking over to lucky plaza to have lunch, i spotted a ah lian-look-alike having longer hair then i do, and i am jealous. Ive decided, my hair is not long at all and i shall have longer hair then Rapunzel. Heh heh =D

2. Swimming without a cap for countless times, my hair is getting as dry as hay and im upset, im going to buy a cap now. So bye. =D

Yay, holidays!

2008-09-24T11:57:00.002+08:00

Say hi to 2 weeks and 3 days holiday, but my holiday's gonna be cut! cut! cut! cut! down to just pathetic 4 days ): All thanks to my work, its killing me!

im regretting right now, i spend all my money on ds lite, the totally stupid useless gadget. Yes, i only have (me myself &i) to blame. Dumb serene.

Anyway, Hello stacks of sweet-smelling cash. I'll be awaiting for your arrival.

Yet another swimming session, got to go, bye! =D

Im tired ):

2008-09-22T23:13:00.001+08:00

Working is tiring me out, and im...

TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im angry!

2008-09-15T22:41:00.004+08:00

The whole of today was horrible. I was fucking busy to the extend i had to go down town to sign my contract during break time that led to fucking hunger i almost died on the chair. Dad was freaking impatient with me, he had to nag at me for not planning my time, super pek chek with him i decided i should not go for lao pok cousin's wedding.

Whatever man.

I am super bad mood (xmillion) now, i can kill the next person who irritates me.

Results came out this morning, got a shock out of my life over the amount of Cs & Ds. Super disappointed given the amount of hard work i put in, i do so badly still. Hate this man. It makes me feel like giving up. Arghhhh.

I need my punching bag.

Swimming lessons rocks.

2008-09-15T22:41:00.002+08:00

I had my first swimming lesson today. It was super duper fun, i hoped it could only last longer. ):

Work's starting this saturday with classmate and probably kaya. Im happy i have friends to accompany me or i'll be damn bored. Pi's gonna be damn jealous, he has nothing but muscular friends. =D

I cant wait!!!

i love my new computer!

2008-09-14T14:05:00.002+08:00

Edited;

ive been neglecting poor blog until dad bought me a new com. Nobody wants a com nowadays except me (im traditional), the screen is damn huge n bright its killing my eyes.

But i feel damn sad for my bank acc, its all dried up right now. Ive decided i should stop spending my money on food. Its making me grow sideways and i really hate it. Im going for my first ever swimming lesson tomorrow, im damn motivated and its not going to be a short-term-kind-of-thing, i swear im going to be the next stephanie rice (she snatched michael phelps away) I am just joking.

Okay im no longer jobless anymore, thats pretty cool i'll be damn shagged from now on. Got to juggle between attachment and work, i'll be thankful if i dont drop dead. I really need to put the 500(bucks) back. I must.

Jia you serene, thats all ive got to say.

Yay, swimming!

2008-09-08T20:51:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow shall be the first time in a few years i'll be swimming, or should i say play in the pool, with classmates! =D

Im so excited i guess i'll suffer from insomnia tonight! (including the fact that sister moved over to grandma's side, im lonely) Pi warned me not to take in too much breakfast tomorrow, i dont even need him to remind me, im starving myself tonight! Ive stopped consuming food after 6pm! I'll be damn hungry later in the night. Shittttt.

Lets hope yiqi will go tomorrow, dont spoil the fun ma! =D

Im thinking of a cycling session on thursday morning. Anybody?

No more household chores.

2008-09-01T14:29:00.002+08:00

The rain left me stranded at home once again. The past few days had been crazily bored, ive done so much of household chores i could qualify for a housewife.

I thought i could lessen mama's burden while she's away in msia, i helped mama washed my own clothings (+sister's), HUGE MISTAKE, mama says she could easily put them into the washing machine. Thanks ah, my arms almost give way washing those huge pyjamas.

Ive since decided, i MUST be a taitai, no more washing of clothes. Maids next time! =D The rain stopped already, i must get going! Tata! =D

Holidays sucks.

2008-08-28T19:17:00.002+08:00

Pi bought a new ipod and im freaking jealous. Ive got nothing this holiday! It sucks to be jobless! Employ me, anybody?

p/s: I love mooncakes with egggggggs! (:

I hate cramps.

2008-08-25T13:27:00.002+08:00

Menstrual cramp found its way to me this morning, and left me half-dead moaning on the bed for at least 40minutes before i fell asleep. I hate cramps, they make me feel like shitting on my bed. (which i did not, of course)

Holidays are finally here after much anticipation, but im pretty bored. Pi's working on certain days, that makes me fucking free &bored at home. Its the best time to date all the babes out, ive been neglecting everyone!

Play-time! Sa-yo-na-ra!

Tisa Yee.

2008-08-18T21:55:00.004+08:00

Yes i just uploaded that picture up there. Im sucha noob, its been awhile this picture is taken. Slowpoke.

Yesterday was tisa's birthday cum reunion dinner, managed to meet the girls (w/o their boyfriend, FINALLY) &got some decent pictures taken. I tried the ferris wheel in ehub (after pi reject me) It was damn fun other then the fact that im fucking scared of heights. Zhen was on the verge of slapping me cus i couldnt stop saying its scary. I felt like i was a kid, once again. Haha.

The rest of us caught the match versus china in table tennis at bubbletea shop in downtown after zhen left us for her studies. (remember your promise, zhen!) Singapore got a silver, oh yea public holiday please. Dropped sel off at busstop and proceeded to mac for more girls talk. Its been years i last spoke to her );

Hope you enjoyed your birthday dinner tisa yee li ping. I still love you! =D Pictures soooon yea.

Mcdelivery.

2008-08-16T15:41:00.003+08:00

I just ordered my first McDelivery! So fun! 10.15$ for a meal. Worth it man. I am a lazy bummer.

Home alone.

2008-08-16T13:50:00.002+08:00

Yet another exam in 3 days time. Finally im feeling the kiasu-ism, most probably cause i scored a F the previous round.

Woke up at 10am to catch michael phelps win another gold medal, he's god damn good indeed. Started studying since. I better score well, for all my hard work. Damn. Yesterday's paper was a killer (at least for me) I almost gave up, not until i persuaded myself to write anything that comes to my mind. Thank god for that, i guess i got 40% of it right.

Titi's bday on monday, classmate ly's bday on friday, serene's belated birthday present yet to be bought. Omg, i am fucking broke can!

I am super bored x10 and im going back to my books. I am a nerd.

Serene hate exams.

2008-08-13T14:50:00.003+08:00

Boring life started at 9.30am, started studying at 10am. Chiong anot! Im going crazy trying to get those medicine's name into my hollow head.

Sayonara, im heading towards airport to continue the studying. Arghhhh.

Procrastinate xmillion.

Finally.

2008-08-12T12:14:00.002+08:00

Im on a holiday &im happy. (:

Bought a top from topshop and a wallet from river island yesterday. I am indeed a happy bear! (:

Typical day at HPB

2008-08-08T15:02:00.003+08:00

This is what i do when im bored.

Other things included:

Sing out-dated songs with ah boon

Going all out to disturb other girls

Be an extra &help classmates update their board.

Disturb the SRA.

Assist other classmates.

Eat chocolates (secretly)

Sneak into toilet to play ds lite

Clean each other's teeth

Group around and talk.

Matchmake jocandy and erhem.

No wonder Bartney gets angry with us (or me) easily.

Byebye my unit!

2008-08-08T14:51:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the last day for op tech session. &i am a sad bear. ): Dr V gave us a treat and took pictures with the class. I did not attend the photo taking. Dr Mok says i am petty, i suppose i am. =D

Whatever it is, thats the end of lab classes, and im so not prepared for therapy work at HPB. ): Argh, i need more time!! >_<

I finally finished impression taking (without feeling angry), and all my schedule on time &the girls took pictures together!

No more napfa.

2008-08-01T19:19:00.004+08:00

Napfa ended and im a happy bear! Yay! (:

Happy bear.

2008-07-29T19:23:00.003+08:00

Happy bear i should be.

Its 3rd year anniversary tomorrow. Yayness x10. Present my ds lite tomorrow! Tata for now.. (:

Loner.

2008-07-29T18:34:00.003+08:00

Oral viva-ed today. The overall feeling wasnt that bad, it was the backstabbing that almost blew me away. ):

Everyone's asking me about my punctuality. I knew something was amiss. Found out from mdm soh, dr h wasnt the only one. )': I cant believe i got stabbed in the back so many times without even knowing what happened.

Great, i got stabbed so hard in the back, im finally crumbling down, they cant be any happier. I swear i did try my best to change the whole situation, which only failed at the bootlicking part.

I held my pride so highly, before anything else, only to find that it got me entangled. Now i am a loser. ): I hate myself as much as you do. You fuckers. )':

I went home alone today, feeling even lonelier then ever. It feels like im battling this alone, &im tired. ): I cant wait to end it all. Everyone thinks im thinking too much, but nobody really cared how i feel. I know, because...

Nobody likes me... )))))':

Ds lite, i love you!

2008-07-25T08:54:00.005+08:00

Supposed to be in school by this time, but i managed to change timeslot with xinyee, so i'll be able to start/end class with pi. (:

Not too long, i'll be able to get my hands on lovely ds lite. So excited, cause i've been bugging mama to buy me one, she's been so reluctant. Finally, im receiving it as a gift. =D

Totally clueless about the parts, hope i'll not tio pian. >_<

Im so bored now, i should do something. Bye!

Anything but study.

2008-07-21T21:00:00.001+08:00

Sister says i play computer 24/7. Thats not true, i watch tv too! ((:

Random:
I want to get as dark as pipi pang! SSS (Suntanning session soon)? Hmm...

Shall keep it a secret! =D

Monday. (:

2008-07-21T18:30:00.003+08:00

Everyday im filled with so much things to do, it takes me awhile to realise im not too far from fearful exams. >_<

Not exactly very afraid of it, im just lazy to start revising all over again. Especially being the super last minute kind. (: I just reminded pi its 9 more days to our 3 year anniversary. He couldnt take it anymore, he revealed he was actually planning to buy for me a watch or a ds lite. =D Ds lite, i want!

So no more surprise for pi, cause he requested for psp in exchange (titi &sel bf dont have to shun him anymore). Okay lah, we'll have a small exchange pi! Next month then buy watch okay! Hahahaha. =X

Talking about buying presents, i bought a rilakkuma file for jiajia to thank her for her rescue the other day. Turns out she had the file already. Hard-core fan lah, she bought all 9 different designs of file can. *Speechless*

Seeing classmates almost 6days a week, it indeed made us closer then before. Im glad the clique is finally more stable, with outsiders all eliminated. Now we're happier (as we lunch) together, and bitch about the same old people. =D Poor luyun hasnt been feeling very well these days. I hope her headache will subsides soon. Mama's essential oil to the rescue!

Timetable reads; watch tv programme time! Sa-yo-na-ra! ((:

The past one week.

2008-07-19T19:32:00.003+08:00

Finally its the long-awaited weekends. Past few days had been super busy. Dad and mum currently on cold war, i so hate this. ):

Aunty suggested that we go on a 1 day msia trip for grandma's birthday. Mum got angry it. She hates going msia, i dont know why. But dad insist on going. Every year they're quarelling over this matter, it seems like they'll never get sick of it. ): I get very upset being sandwiched in between, i dont know who should i side actually.

I dislike aunty for causing my family problems. )':

Ive been going home late because of this matter, dont really want to go home and face all these problems. I wish everything would be over soon. Sob. ):

Exams in a few weeks time, i hope i'll be able to focus and do well! Jia you, serene! ((: Nafa's on 2 weeks from now, really hope i'll be able to pass my 2.4km run! Ive failed my running for the past 5 years. Really ma lu. =X

Irresponsible X.

2008-07-19T16:52:00.002+08:00

Assistant fell asleep while assisting today. Sounds ridiculous but she indeed doze off and almost slept on patient's chest. Oh my goodness. >_<

The previous session she mixed the right and left dentition up. &i had to answer on behalf of her. Dr gave me a lousy score as a result. ): I hate my partner.

I cant wait for september. (we'll change partners) (: *happiest*

Death.

2008-07-15T22:37:00.002+08:00

Remember the NS man who died in brunei during his training? Now his gf's grieving. Cant help but feel sad everytime i view her blog. ):

I cant imagine if i were to lose pi, like overnight. I guessed i wont even be strong enough to continue living. Everywhere i go will be filled with memories and i'll rather suicide then to get bugged by my own memories. I dont know if i should say this, but pi's been considering flying as a career. I get panicky whenever he reminds me of it. Training can be tough and tedious, and newspaper articles of healthy NS man dropping dead just after a few km run. This really scares me.

Pi's really into training. I dont want to appear silly and noob reminding him of his safety, cause he'll think im overly paranoid. But i dont want anything to happen to pi. We were just discussing this this afternoon, and i warned him if he ever finds another girl to be his girlfriend, i'll haunt him for life. I was just joking pi. (:

Lovelove pi, please dont die! =D

Please do sign this.

2008-07-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

In 2007, a helpless dog was brought from the streets and left tied onto a rope in an art gallery by a sicko man who claim to be an artist he himself. (Guillermo Vargas Habacuc) Visitors and Guillermo Vargas Habacuc watched on as the poor dog was left to starve to death. ):

Sadly, the Visual Arts Biennial of the Central American decided that the action was actually an art and Guillermo Vargas Habacuc has been invited to repeat the cruel act once again this year.

We cannot sit around and allow this to happen. People, please help sign this petition! Something has to be done to stop this! ):

Click on the websites to sign the petition!
http://www.petitiononline.com/ea6gk/petition-sign.html
http://www.petitiononline.com/13031953/petition.html

Do you really care.

2008-07-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

Depressed after my practical test, i managed to laugh it off. The long ride on the bus triggered my thoughts back, and i was.. once again, an upset bear.

I want to jot my feelings down so badly, but was held back at the thought of being judged. If making fun of others sounds like a bitch to you, how about those people who backstabbed their so-called "friends". Lifes been unfair to me. ):

Does it mean if ive been a bitch for the past 20 years, i should be deemed a bitch forever? In that case, then why should the government put in so much effort, trying to give a second chance to those that made mistake before. Nobody is perfect, everyone makes a lil mistake. Sadly, nobody really bothers if you've changed for the better. The stereotype remains.

At times it sets me wondering if ive done enough for my "friends". Yes true, ive got no extra wealth to waste/treat my "friends", but do you even think money is enough to buy friendship. How about the years we spend together, the days we quarrelled, and the amount of things we've been through together. Can it even be measured &compared with our friendship. It seems like money weigh so much more then us. Now do you mean only if im able to treat you, drive you around (if i own a car), buy you presents, give you all my attention then i'll be your best friend. It thought it shouldnt be that way. ):

When i get the best deal/job offers, i always share it. When whoever feels depressed/suicidal, i'll be there to comfort. When i get to know my "friends" has silly thoughts (need a tattoo, smoke/drink), i'll prolly be the first to nag and disagree. But why do i find all the door closed and shut tightly when i needed help. Nobody bothered to even reply. Not even "friends". It was.. such a disappointment. It dawn on me, i am not at all treasured.

Im not exactly trying to express how noble i am, but im just sadden by the treatment of whom i called friends. I do do reflections. I thought maybe they felt neglected as well, or maybe i had not given them as much help either. Or maybe its just the money matter. I really dont know. ):

Screwed.

2008-07-15T13:41:00.002+08:00

I screwed up my practical test earlier on.

Things i did wrongly:
1. Cavity prep being too shallow. (ard 1mm)
2. Using too much of slow speed. (better to be safe then sorry ma..)
3. Re-do amalgam restoration twice. ): (it fractured off)
4. Minor minor faults x10.

The only thing i was satisfied with was my carving. ): I really wished i can (at least) pass. ): *Pray super hard*

Im glad. (:

2008-07-14T19:01:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's practical exam. Im really nervous, hope i'll be able to pass like the previous time. I heard from classmates mrs quek praise me to them, im really happy she did. Thou i dont really like her, im glad she changed a lil, to be more loveable. =X

Ex-colleague messaged asking for a favour. He mentioned he needed some bucks urgently. I refused the favour after several thoughts. Felt very bad at the moment, but i guessed i did the right choice. I can barely support myself, how am i supposed to feed him with more bucks. Hmm.. >_<

Work or no work.

2008-07-14T00:05:00.003+08:00

Bf suggested he wants to work. I dont know if he should. The money part sounds tempting, but i dont like it when he's away from me.

Hate it when people influences him. Arghhh.

(Random) I finally satisfy my craving for durains when i managed to get dad to drive us to buy some. Gobbled the long-awaited fruits without sparing a thought for the carbs. Sorry pi, i pang seh you for our durain trip together, i had enough of durains. =D

A sunday night.

2008-07-13T23:29:00.002+08:00

I hate it when i get lazy to pluck my armpit hair(s) cause i shaved it in a hurry today &it itch like hell now.

I hate itching of armpits.

Whatever. Its 11.30pm, suppose to beauty-sleep. But im still rushing assignment which i totally forgot. Pure bad memory, that is. In order not to raise hema's (dr)blood pressure any higher, im sacrificing my sleep. Okay, i should stop procrastinating.

Till the next free time. Good night, world.

Shopping - the best therapy.

2008-07-13T13:28:00.004+08:00

Met up with the girls (together with their bfs) and shopped around town. My hands were getting all itchy after i stopped shopping for ONE WHOLE MONTH. (excluding those done in bkk)

Caught red cliff after sel&bf left, such a disappointment when "TO BE CONTINUED" appeared on the big screen. Everyone was like w-t-f?! But the 2 and a half hour movie was god-damn-good. It was my first time not resisting to war movies, all bcause i thot i can see a weebit of porno. What the heck, the bed scence lasted for a mere 20 seconds and you can see, nothing much. Damnit.

Best buy of the day had to be my topshop bikini, i visited 3 branches for it. Just for jo's suggestion of hitting the pool, pi&i both bought a hit-the-beach item each. Kiasu not, dates not even set yet. =D

What a boring sunday, im off to surf the net. Byebye!

I dislike insects.

2008-07-11T10:54:00.002+08:00

No lessons today, but theres dreadful elective. ):

Can you imagine going to school on a friday afternoon, just for physical training. (which i dislike ALOT) Totally spoils my day. Argh. 90% attendance is stopping me from skipping. I so hate this.

Im so sleepy due to bad sleep last night. I got biten by something nasty while i was preparing to sleep. I jumped up but found nothing suspicious. Pi suggested i inform mama, but dad woke up instead. He combed the whole area but nothing moved. Everybody tried to convince me nothing was under my blanket. But i remembered i felt something round as i swiped it away.

Freaked out, i went over to reg's room to sleep. Damnit. Her bed's so small i had a hard time sleeping. Still had to picked my bears from the ground in the night. (they fell off the bed) Im so not going to sleep on my bed, not after i change my bed sheets. Im... scared.

What could it be man..

p/s: Im afraid of thing/insect/whatever that is not afraid of me. Damn.

Angry bear.

2008-07-10T20:33:00.002+08:00

I got angry with classmate today, im pretty surprised i was. I hardly show my emotions to any of my friends, but i got too annoyed today, i ignored her totally. I suppose she guessed it as well. She stopped talking to me after i made her talk to the walls.

Whatever it is, its all resolved now. (: &im once again a happy bear. =D

What a bad tempered bear i am.

Time flies, a few things happened:
1. Sister is off to bangkok, again. Sayonara, hope she remembers my present.
2. My ezcema is back to normal. Yayness.
3. Recruited patients but nobody except tisa and ppk wants. Nobody likes me. ):
4. Jo found my blog and read it. Hello to jo, you're a good detective.

Off to watch my 9pm show. Bye!

Dental treatment by ME.

2008-07-09T20:20:00.004+08:00

My patient disappoint me once again. ): Im left without patient, for the 2nd time. Super sad x10, but i get to assist today. (: Got informed that i'll get to choose my own patient, so im recruiting you guys, to be treated by.. Yours truly. (:

Anyone who is interested is welcome, treatment will be done by ME, personally. Whatever treatment rendered in a visit would be 21 bucks each. (Outside would be much more expensive) Pain-free is not guarenteed, but so far so good, ive been very gentle. (: For more info, feel free to give me a call people! Tisa, you're first on my list!

P/s; i'll be working on ONLY wednesday and saturday. There would be 2 session on wednesday, 8.30am and 2pm and saturday at 9am. (: Sms me for the preferred time slot (&dates)!

Pi's New Hairstyle.

2008-07-06T22:28:00.002+08:00

Wearing my fav dress. (:

The other day at pi's house.

He wanted to balance the lamp on his nose.

New hairstyle, that is.

Handsome seh.

Pipi and i.

Spy.

2008-07-06T13:58:00.002+08:00

Yanzhen: I saw spiky at the swimming pool.
Pi: I saw yanzhen at swimming complex.
Me: I know, she msged me, ive got spy.

See what i mean by you're never out of my supervison, pi? I make a good supervisor. (:

Polka Dots.

2008-07-06T13:12:00.004+08:00

Very bad news, im made jobless again, cause all the timeslots are taken. Blame it on my bad schedule, im too busy to update the person. ): More opportunity next time, and i'll definately not miss you people. (Includes, tisa, zhen, joey and ppk) =D

Updates about my first patient, pt's too sick to come for appointment, im left with no pt, classmates did scaling and polishing for me. Bad experience again, i drank alot more water with calculus. Could it be that that caused the small red dots on my body. Speaking about that, i thot i kena a mosquito bite during treatment and i ignored it totally. When i reached home and remove my clothes, i saw fucking lots of small red dots on the right of my body. What could it be.. ): Im... afraid. Fucking itchy can, and the most eerie thing is the red dots seems to be in a straight line. ):

Symptoms of Chickenpox
Chickenpox causes a red, itchy rash on the skin that usually appears first on the abdomen (mine!!!!) or back and face, and then spreads to almost everywhere else on the body, including the scalp, mouth, nose, ears, and genitals.

Mama says it could be chicken pox. Nooooooooooooooo! Ive still got tons to do, i cant afford to miss school. Now god bless me, pls pass the chicken pox to others. NOT ME!!!!!

Sob sob, pipi's off to take swimming test (hope he pass) (: & theres nobody i can talk to. Lets just hope its a harmless mosquito bite. ):

Definition.

2008-07-04T18:37:00.002+08:00

Serene means;

1. Calm, peaceful, or tranquil; unruffled: a serene landscape; serene old age.
2. Clear; fair: serene weather.
3. (usually initial capital letter) most high or august (used as a royal epithet, usually prec. by his, your, etc.): His Serene Highness. –noun
4. Serenity; tranquillity.
5. Archaic. a clear or tranquil expanse of sea or sky.

Now im confused. Am i serene? I am not at all calm and peaceful. >_<

I am a bad friend.

2008-07-04T13:47:00.001+08:00

Typing this from school, i cant change my font. Irritated x10. Introduce Magic Pen to classmates, all of them are playing now. Sore-loser serene gave up after losing. Haha.

Yesterday was Classmate X's birthday. Being the very good partner, i decided to buy her a (slice) of coco exotic and surprise her. Surprised far more people then expected, Jo asked me what makes me do that. To do more good deed, i guess. (:

Im off to elective class (physical fitness) now. Say bye to fatty fats, shake them all off. =D Tata!

Edited;

Back from physical training. Ran 2 sets of 600m = 1.2km. Only sprint for the first 200m, the rest could kill me. Game at the end of the session was fun. (: Im starting to like the training, but i still hate 2.4km. I cant run for nuts. )':

Anyway, classmates been asking me for my blog's url. I was reluctant to reveal. Sometimes i blog about them, i dont want them to read it, i dont want any misconception going around. I really hope they would never find it, in any way. More work to continue, blog again next time. (:

Random facts.

2008-07-01T22:05:00.002+08:00

1. I cant buy any concession anymore, &im angry. ROAR. How is there any link between my sponsorship and my bus fare? Sponsorship doesnt make me any richer. Seriously.

2. Pi cant stop complaining to classmates that i bully him. He asked me for 3.60$ (my lunch) &pinched my arm till it almost went blueblack, i treated him 5bucks back. Im a nice girlfriend, appreciate it okay. =D

3. Most of classmates suffer from ulcers. &im one of them now. Who the hell spread it to me. Okay, i didnt fail my module, i know ulcers cant be passed on.

4. Anti-smoking post wasnt very constructive, posting it doesnt make a difference. I know a leopard doesnt change its spots easily, i should had been smarter. =X

5. 4 more days to treating LIFE patient, 5 more days to new job, 14 more days to practical exam, 29 more days to 3 year anniversary. Events more then anything, im a busy bear. >_<

No longer jobless

2008-07-01T21:21:00.003+08:00

Yay, i'll be working every sunday (for the whole of july) at ikea tampines! (: That means i'll be very, very, very, very, fucking busy! I'll be occupied from monday to sunday. OMG. I need a breather.

No choice, i need more bucks to satisfy my crave for clothes. (: Dined at crystal jade today, thou im like fucking broke. I cant believe this either. Im such a huge spender. ):

Whatever it is, im smell cash. &im happy! (:

Time certainly flies.

2008-06-30T14:46:00.003+08:00

Today's the 30th, which means its our anniversary. Happy 2 years and 11 months pi. Wow wow wow, its just 1 more month to 3 year. Ha, lao couple. LOL >_<

People always go;

1. "Wah, you all very long alr!"
2. "Still together?" (Curse me ah, fuck you)
3. "When getting married?"

Its not very long exactly, time goes by (so fast) like a bullet train. Whatever it is, im happy with pi. (: Its been a tough time, trying to hide all these from mama. My lying skills get better each year, im glad mama's more relax now. Im a grown up anyway (other then playing with bears -its a habit)

So, happy anniversary pi. Lovelove! (:

Dad messaged me about the medicine for my ezcema, im glad he cares for me. (: Regina, its time i get my fair share of love. =D I replied with a smiley and he gave me another smiley. So happy ive got a dad like him. He's a great man. I love papa!

Nobody is perfect.

2008-06-29T14:55:00.004+08:00

Heres an equation;

Nobody is perfect

&im not nobody,

therefore im imperfect.

Sad.

No smoking, please.

2008-06-29T14:18:00.004+08:00

Its time for a change, i should just stop ranting about schools. Its becoming routine. Damn.

One thing that i find it hard to accept, people who smokes. Im sorry, no offence. I still hate people who smokes. I grew up from a non-alcoholic/smoker family, i hate it when i realise people whom i care/love starts to smoke. I'll then start acting ignorant, like i dont give a damn.

Excuses are always given, like they are stress/peer pressure, whatever. Its not at all valid. Im sorry, it just disturbs me alot. People ignores my advice, i give up. The pretence should just go on.

No names to be mentioned, you know who you are. Friends are hard to come by, i guess i'll be sticking it through. (:

Traditional bear.

2008-06-28T20:03:00.003+08:00

My boyfriend's such a traditional bear. &he's angry with me. I made a meow face to scare him and he became scared he forfeited my durains. ): & im a sad bear now.

More meow face perhaps.

Edited: I got a karateh chop, a muay thai kick and a panda box from him. Im a terribly hurt bear. He's got my meow scratches anyway. Ha. Cat fight. I love it.

Im happy.

2008-06-28T18:52:00.003+08:00

I feel happy today, cause backache's finally over, im no longer stress. I got the chance to be both assistant and operator, im glad my hand didnt shiver when injecting LA. I feel proud of myself not inflicting any pain to classmates, which mean, im ready for the first patient next saturday. (:

In addition, happy serene went shopping, and bought another top from TOPSHOP. I know my clothes are enough to bury me alive, but i find myself wearing repeated clothes always. (which i dislike alot). I saw mimi &friends while shopping, and we ran away (i dont know why) but its awkward seeing each other. By the way, i guess i no longer hate her, theres no need to. Its been history, i guess. (:

Menses coming to an end, im extremely happy. No more emotional thoughts, i hate it when im made to think back. I hate reflections actually, i dont want to be reminded of all the stupid things ive done. But anyway, theres this one thats affecting me quite a bit. Its a little sad to say, but people find it hard to have trust in me. I dont know if its a result of being a bitch, or i just have the cant-be-trusted face. Whatever it is, im .. upset. ):

Positive i must be.

2008-06-27T21:11:00.004+08:00

Pi thinks im faking my backache, hell no, the pains on&off. I had a great time biting his (smelly) scalp, i guess i need to do more of these happy exercise. ((:

Im feeling more relax today. Cause its fries (fri)day! =D Clinicals again tomorrow, i'll be the assistant this time. 9pm show sets be thinking, i should be more positive in life. Cheer up from now serene. =D

I dont wish to have any regrets, i need to start changing before karma comes knocking on my door. Im finally enlighten, feel happy for me pls.

Lifes been bad. Pretty bad.

2008-06-27T19:12:00.003+08:00

My heart sank when i saw a F on the result slip. "F for fuck you", i shouted. Its a huge setback, cause i had never failed any of my test. Double shockness came when i receive an A in another result slip. "YAY! IVE GET AAAAAAAAAA!!!". Huge mistake. ): Competitive classmates now look upon me as another challenge. Sad to say, i hate to be in the competition. I feel inferior. ):

Mood hasnt been really well, in addition to my backache. Its killing me but ive got zero time to see a physician. I need to get a couple of things done. An explaination for backache &sinusitis, along with medications for eczema. Seems like im having problems everywhere, im hating life, really.

Realise blog's been all about school the past few days/weeks. Thats life for me. Its all about S. School. Still hanging on there, its just a matter of time i'll be down. ): God bless.

Angry Serene.

2008-06-24T22:44:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i hate to be in the bus where pi would be sleeping, and i'll be there alone, spending the time thinking of nonsensical stuffs. I hate to be reminded of how's life for me cause i seriously hate my life right now.

I hate it when im reminded i chose this course myself cause im on the verge of giving it all up. I hate to go to school, i resist the lecturers teaching. I hope i could give it up.

Here i am, having my menses (i always hated it), suffering from sudden headaches and prolonged backache which is fucking painful can. Yet ive got to take all the nonsense i get from lecturers, and worst still, classmates are the same. Birds of the same feather flock together. I find no joy in going school, i hate this course, i hate these people. I wished i could be back in the past, where i'll be (at least) happier.

I wished.. i had chosen another course instead. I need a re-set button badly. )':

p/s: nobody ever listens to me, nobody cares. I yearn for a break so badly, yet im not granted any. I hate this. I want to end it all. ):

Monday Blues.

2008-06-23T19:27:00.004+08:00

Today's back-to-school day. Not a very good day to start, hema was extremely bitchy today. She said something about me being stupid. Knn. Whatever it is, i dont really am bothered about that old bitch. She's at the about-to-die age anyway.

Speaking about this, i totally hate people who enjoys rubbing more lethal salts on other's wound. Fucked up classmate D, enjoys doing just that. Out of the 2000 word sentence that i say, he loves picking the part that pricks me the most. He would happily praise the other party in doing a good job. WTF? Just another insensitive piece of cock. Ive been mastering "Dont mess with the zohan" signature kick, i guess i should practise it on D's face. Not to mention his damn good flirting skills (in front of gf somemore) &ignorant of gf's sickness. I fucking hate such guys. Fuck you, No, fuck yourself with cactus, D.

After so much of saliva, hema's still reluctant to let us drop debate. Somemore hao lian to me she's from debate team. I dont give a damn la, please. Duh she's from debating team la, her mouth shoots off like a machine gun. She dont even need any training can. I fucking hate her la. Stupid old bitch, faster die/stroke/whatever illness la! Angry x10! *Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr*

On a happier note, pi's back. &im happy bear once again! ((: But life's pretty much the same. If im lucky, i'll get to go out tomorrow! (: Got to go and do debate stuffs already. Byebye blogggg.

p/s: I gt pray to the gods in bangkok leh. Why still so suay. Kanasai can.

Boring Saturday.

2008-06-21T17:27:00.002+08:00

Stupid attachment totally spoils my weekend morning, had to wake up at 5.30am to prepare for school. But lesson's getting more fun, i got a chance to become the operator today. Poor patient had to be complain-more-than-anything Yiqi, who made me all even more tensed and slow x10 in my work. All my probing depths had to be 1mm, anything more then that she's gonna scream at me. Not that bad la, she was quite a cooperative patient i should say. (:

Got released once we were done, very nice, cause we were all happy. Met sister at bugis before i ka-ching her for a scrumptious chicken-meal (which was mos burger) with extra chicken nuggets. Yes, i finally get to eat such add-ons in peace, cause pi's coming back today!!! Ive got to stuff myself with more of such food before i start my war-kind-of-diet again. (:

Pi's absence other then leaving me with loneliness, it led me to realise i still have friends who care. At least i know i had friends who bothers to call &inform me pi's online (both ben&kaya), im grateful for that. Handphone bill's expensive, yet they bother to do so. Rich people, i know. Friends who still bother to ask me out (zhen, tisa, selena, kaya), im glad x10 for that. ((:

Im glad granny lifestyle's coming to an end, and im not at all ready for school. Debates on on every wednesday, that means to juggle between attachment and debates. I guess its too much for me, im not happy at all. Whatever it is, im ready to throw my face away (probably 100 miles away) i want to lose the fucking debate.

Here comes the damn debate title : "Should individuals that suffer from AIDS/HIV be made public" &lao niang's from the opposition team. Now debate, people.

Rollercoaster emotion.

2008-06-20T00:28:00.002+08:00

I received a surprise call from kaya just awhile ago, i got all crazy over what i heard.

"come online, spiky's online"

WHAT? i immediately switched on both computers in hope to use the faster one. I cant wait to talk to pi can! Super excited x10.

But nothing last forever, it was peck's turn to use. Not being selfish, i bid goodbye to pi. ): Sad x10 now.

Although its just but another 2 days, its freaking hell for me la. I am hardly motivated to do anything. I just yearn for the day pi would be back. ):

I miss pi. )': I feel im as nua as a mashed banana now. Damnit.

Yawn.

2008-06-19T13:41:00.004+08:00

Im finally feeling how grandma feels daily.

Ive been doing nothing constructive for the past few hours. Life seems to be super miserable while i can only sit back and do nothing, linger around the house, look at my buys (repeatedly) from bkk and wait for the time to go by before meeting the girls at 7pm.

Im fucking bored. Roaarrrr.

Missing pi part one.

2008-06-18T23:06:00.003+08:00

Life's disastrous without pi.

1. I wake up not knowing what to do.

2. Attended debating briefing session, had lunch with yiqi.

3. Chatted for the next 3hours till my throat was literally begging for mercy.

4. Took bus home. Bus passed by pi's house, wanted to get down so badly. ):

5. Not knowing what to do, i switched on the computer and started blogging.

6. At 9pm, started staring at tv for 1 hour, but my mind's somewhere else. (thinking for peck's number)

7. Called so many random number - all wrong.

8. Finally got peck's number from kaya. It was another failed attempt.

9. Realising i could never contact with pi, i gave up.

10. Wanted to clean off eye make up, ended up plucking 3 eyelashes out. ):

11. Decided i should blog about my pathetic life.

12. Cant help it but cry.

I miss you pi. Please come back soon. )': My life's in such a mess now. )))))))))))):

Bkk trip.

2008-06-18T19:17:00.013+08:00

Pictures not in sequence. (Starting from day 4 to day 1)

Marie the cat shop. (look at the amt of things i bought)

Fucking flooded.

Mad rush. (did i mention we almost couldnt make it - due to the damn jam)

Really messy hair.

Not happy at all leaving bangkok.

Bargaining is an art, enjoy it. (:

Very happy uncle &us.

Thristy shoppers.

Moving on..

Pi what you doing here in bangkok. =D

Family dinner. ((:

Rat needed food as well.

So did i.

One last shot before checking out. Sob.

Had to blend in to the culture.

Rat was mis-behaving.

Tired xmillion.

Animals gathering. (very fortunate toys)

Breakfast with dad.

On fucking cheap cab. (:

My very happy family.

Yummy steamboat.

Copy singapore siah.

Mannequinn wannabe.

Wanted to get that bear down.

Very big shopping centre. (almost died walking)

Very nice shop.

You want big necklace?

I wanted to pose like the bear.

Very nice &big sushi.

Comfy xiao xiang, rat, pokpok &big me.

Platinum, the best place to shop at.

Black canyon coffee - Nice coffee.

Dad &i outside central world.

Reg the veg &smelly serene.

Before checking in. Happy serene!

Hello bangkok!

Checking in in process.

Off to chatuchak!

Dinner at sharkfins restaurant. Yummy!

On the plane (to bangkok)

Rat wanted to pose with cotten candy-like clouds.

Beautiful view.

Before boarding. I was bored stiff.

Super excited about the trip. Say hello, bkk! ((:

Hello sunny island.

2008-06-18T18:41:00.002+08:00

Yes im finally back from bkk. Wonderful trip, that is. ((:

Im back in singapore with fucking lots of barangs. Which most of them are clothes and more clothes. The trip was fruitful &well planned (by uncle) &we had plenty of shopping time. It was all about shopping, eat, sleep kind of deal. Im damn good at bargaining now. The best part of the trip? Fucking cheap clothes. Im looking forward to the next trip whereby i'll probably camp at chatuchak overnight. (:

Now that im back. Im feeling lonely. I miss pi. )':

Happy wizard, hate lizards.

2008-06-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

Its just a few more hours, &i'll be off till next week. ((:

Now should i or should i not bring smelly (xiaoxiang) along. Im afraid the thai authorities might think im hiding drugs underneath.

Yes, im a happy wizard cause i just levelled ttwinkle. Say hi to lvl 66 twinkle. I made it in a short 2 hours training. Am i god or what. =D &im hating lizard cause one just scare the hell out of me at pi's toilet. I screamed so fucking loudly, i guess the lizard probably went deaf right away. I was trapped in the fucking small room (with no place to even hide myself) & was terrorize by the damn fucking ugly thing. I shouted for pi to save me, but he helplessly stood outside, not knowing how to open the damn door. Smart-ass peck eventually saved me. Thank god for that, you had no idea how terrified i was.

Think this: trap in the toilet with fucking gross lizard, which is also super afraid of me. (so afraid it dropped 1m from the wall onto the floor) fucking terrified and helpless. So near yet so far, your saviour's just outside the fucking door.

Fuck you lizard, i managed to escape nevertheless. Fuck you, you slimy-piece-of-thing.

&yes, pi bought the 10k A-cash he owe me and put into my account alr. So happy can. I'll be able to chiong maple when he's not around. Provided kind souls are willing to take me to shopping. If not, poor serene's gonna stay at home all day. Its kind of weird im looking forward to next sunday (freaking loooong). What to do, im superglue what..

Till then, i'll be back soon! ((:

Looking forward.

2008-06-13T10:30:00.004+08:00

Okay, no more unhappiness over the loss of my superglue partner. Anyway, its just but a week. (im trying to convince myself).

I should, instead think of the lovely trip im heading over to. Im gonna stuff myself with food and more food. (since pi's not around) &of course, more clothes!! Shopping, my love. (:

&to dear superglue partner, please do take care of yourself. No skinny dipping at the pool, no late night swimming, but more treats for me! Remember rilakkuma? Haha!

I'll miss you pi. See you on next sunday!