The very first post.

Decided to blog once again, maybe cause today i woke up exceptionally early &i have so much time to waste. Thou i really want beautiful layout, i really cant be bothered with those html. They are driving me crazy. I tried to upload it and failed 3 times, so forget it. Im happy with this ugly layout anyway.

Today's the fifth day since the death of my aunty, and also the day they cremate her body. Its surprising im taking it so easy, maybe because she wasnt so close to me to begin with and i had all along disliked her. When i was still a child, she disliked me so much she commented that i always wear the same dress. (i used to love my snoopy dress) From then on, i hated her. Until we discovered she was diagnosed with 3rd stage cancer and was left with not much time, my hate for her slowly subsides. Afterall, whats there to dislike about a dying person. I began to feel sorry for her kid (he's only 6years old) and i always wanted to visit her. I remembered the last time i saw her she was still looking good, other then being freaking skinny. Not long after, i received the news of her passed away.

I didnt really knew how to react. Not until i hear the whole situation from cousin before i felt really sad, but i didnt want to cry in front of my family. &so i held back my tears. Apparently, my relative were all there before my aunty moved on. They saw how she teared seconds before she passed away. I wonder how grandma felt. She must have been heartbroken.

But life goes on no matter happen, so i shall just take it as a lesson learnt. Never eat too much of fried stuff. Mama told me aunty used to love fried chicken (just like me!) and that could be one of the reason why she developed cancer. Maybe i should be cautious.

Today's kt birthday. Pi &i are going to his bday celebration later in the evening. No worries of being pulled to hit the clubs, cause i remembered kt dislike going to club as well. Hope to enjoy myself. (:

Havent been enjoying myself to the max lately. Been rather busy with work work work all day long. No choice, i need my cold hard cash badly. I need to satisfy my crave for shopping!! Thats all for now, blog again when im free! (: