Pessimistic is the word.

I have a few more to blog; with regards to what happened yesterday. Here it goes:

1. After all the accumulation of food yesterday, i had a "great time" in the toilet. I practically emptied my whole stomach into the damn toilet bowl. Throughout the whole 20 minutes, i was running to and fro (from bed to toilet). Damn. My stomach was in so much pain, i thought i was going to die. I finally crawled my way back to bed and manage to send pi a message.

"Pi i vomited 3 times already. Im feeling very cold. If anything happen to me, please help." He must have felt ridiculous. Help what? Choose coffin colour ah. I wasnt really conscious at that point of time, i was feeling so weak, all i wanted was to get back to dreamland. I curled up in bed under my smelly-yet-so-comfy blanket and fell into deep sleep while sucking a sweet. No worries for rampant caries cause who bothers about caries development when a smelly mouth (with puke smell) is concerned. (:

2. Here's one equation: BOYS + BOYS = TROUBLE. (for me)
Im not being a sexist here, but ive been through bad experience when guys are being placed together. They never fail to disappoint me, and im still sticking to my decision of never to place pi and his gang together. It was kaya's birthday, & he decided he wanted to celebrate in a pub with a few friends. He assured me it was going to be a all-male session, and that he'll take care of pi (for me). I made it an exception, and gave the green light to go ahead. Like i said, the guys never failed to disappoint me. Pi msged me in the morning that they went to zouk instead. I dont know what's the reason for the sudden change, everyone's giving me different answers. I am upset. (still) Yes i made be paranoid, but tell me the reason why is ns men (in particular) more desperate then others. Thats because they are stuck in camp for so long, they only have each other (guys) to talk to and have so much fantasy in mind. But all they can only do is to masturbate to their heart's content in the enclosed cubicle and fuck whoever they know when is given their day off. To girls; stop telling me im such a control freak, wait till the day u find out your bfriend betrays you. To guys; stop assuring me not all males are desperate, prove it to me. Ive seen so countless guys secretly staring at other girls while their gf are busy looking through the shelves (while shopping). Boys never fail to abuse their freedom, so they are to be CONTROLLED. Now dont blame me if i disapprove pi to join u people, if you are to take my approval for granted.