Damn it.

Timetable's out. Monday and tuesday till 5pm. Wednesday (most relax day) till 12pm. Thursday till 6pm. Damn. #^!%#$& Friday till 1pm. Work starts 2.30pm. Now look at my title and agree with me cause my life's screwed with a timetable like that. DAMN.

Just came back from work. Work's getting boring. Things start to change since i agreed to sign on as a permanent part timer. I dont know why. I guess i'll never be able to find out. ): Abit upset over these, but well, its okay. Since ive all along been playing stupid. I shall just continue..

Been watching this hong kong film at 11pm everynight, the story is about this poor taxi man who keeps almost everything to himself and always acting stupid (similiar to me). All he does is smile when customers scold him. He explains himself that he does that so that the customer cant continue with more scoldings. Therefore, he chose to smile. I find this super familiar. I see myself in him. Well, if you people out there were to or criticize me in a way or another, dont be surprise to see me smiling or laughing along, cause thats what i usually do. But nobody knows im actually hurt inside. I believe in treasuring all my friends, i dont wish to quarrel and that would be the only reason i smile. When everything gets too much to contain, i'll just break down and cry.

Mama have been super uptight of me coming home lately, she calls me 3 times continuously on thursday. She dont used to do that. She even asked for pi's number. When i pick up her call, she also scold. Dont pick up, she also scold. Super stress over this matter. When i tell her the truth that im going with pi's family to eat, she also want to investigate and ask so many question. Its like as if im a criminal. Irritating x10. When i came home today, i find the door locked. The worst thing is pi was just outside the house lah. All he wants is to collect his clothings ma. I bet tomorrow morning she will shoot a string of questions at me. Fuck it.

I dunno whats happening to my world, i havent been very happy lately. I want to buy alot of things but with so little money. Maybe i should stop buying. Yes i stopped shopping already. I realise i have enough clothings for the time being, but i need a bag. & i need to change my hp as well. My contract's ended already. I want student plan!! ((: Ive decided, i want longchamp!!! and my LG ks20!! May the price drop asap. God bless yea!!