Im sorry

It all started with a bad dream. I dreamt that my best friend's dog, Yeapy, died due to some cancer or something like that. Yea, may be ridiculous but it all seem so real in my dream. I dreamt that my best friend, tisa, got so upset she changed into another person. She became quiet and kept everything to herself, she became a stranger to me..

I got so freaked out i woke up and realise i was perspiring all over. You know, sometimes when you dreamt of something, you wake up and realise you can no longer remember anything abt it. But no, i just couldnt get that whole image out of my mind. That was because, i remembered i saw tisa's blogged that she had some mental illness. I felt disturbed. I dont know if my dream's gonna come true. I dont give a damn if her dog dies or not, but hell, i wont want my friend to become mad.

Relate everything to pi. But he assured me that that was just a dream and tisa's alright. But still, i dont feel right..

Then, i receive a msg from my bestie. "Huang, can meet someday?" That was what she typed. Oh yea, that was what ive been looking forward to. Its just that my job's burning my weekends away and forbidding me from meeting almost everyone. And so i decided to meet her tomorrow. (:

I called her awhile ago and she told me about her condition. I assume its pretty bad cause she's keeping it from her boyfriend. But i need to know what happened. I need to help her. I cant wait for tomorrow..

All i want to say; im sorry my best friend, for discovering your condition only now. Im sorry i havent been by your side, i thought you're abandoning me for your boyfriend. I didnt know you've been struggling, ive been a bad friend. I hope you're okay. ((:

I chose to work, money, nice branded clothes, shopping, wasting my time away, over my family, my best friends, my studies, eveything. Damn, ive been a stupid girl.